Dreading Next Week

Do you know the feeling when you've tried so hard on something, but then you feel as if you shouldn't be putting all that energy into hard work, because you know all you need to do is to finish it? But after you've tried to put off your work in order to stress less, you end up getting a not so good result, and in the end you feel so outwitted because you essentially gave up halfway for nothing.

Maybe you're not such a perfectionist like me, who worries when they get low results, or you don't feel any guilt when you slack off (maybe cause you do all the time). But it's true, the laziest person in the end has to work the hardest, even if he is a hard worker at first.

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.
-Col 3:23

If you're working at something you'd want to put your soul and your heart in it, otherwise you feel you won't get much out of it. But what if your soul and your heart is in your work just so you can please someone?

For example, if my mum forces me to practise the piano (I'm sure some of you have been there), all I will be doing is practicing because my mum told me to. There is something I feel obliged to doing to fulfill her 'bidding'. But if I am to do everything for God, then I shouldn't be forced to practise. If I am told that I have to practise, I will do it knowing I'll do it to the best of my ability to give the glory to God.

So if you going to do something go the extra mile for God. Don't get discouraged, don't fear and do care what you are doing. Know what you're doing something for. Maybe instead of asking, God, how can I serve you and expect Him to tell you; maybe say to yourself, here are things I can do to serve you. God will give you more than you can ever achieve.

I know it's hard sometimes, and I always need this reminder for myself as I often sink knee deep in what I think is something I can't get out of (for this reason, I am dreading next week when I start uni). It's easy just to lower your expectations, go with the flow, succumb to the tall poppy syndrome, whatever. But if I truly claim to believe in God, why don't I rely on Him, Him who can make big changes to anyone's lives?